Trial of 2025 Update. Seeking To Hear What’s Next From God.
It’s a strange and humbling thing to find yourself in a place you never imagined—uncertain of the next step, yet deeply rooted in the truth of who God is and what He’s done.
This Easter marked a turning point. Though it’s been 15 years since I gave my life to Jesus, this year was the first time I experienced Easter from the perspective of fully understanding and receiving what Jesus did for me on the cross and through His resurrection.
When I accepted Him into my heart and confessed my sins, I was set free. But I didn’t yet grasp the fullness of what I had received. Yes, I was saved—but I didn’t understand the depth of the sacrifice, the power of salvation, or the complete freedom I’d been given.
Now, after years of healing, renewing, refining, transforming, and maturing, I get it. I know it. The cross is no longer just a symbol of forgiveness, and the empty tomb isn’t just a promise of eternal life. They are evidence of what I now live in—freedom, victory, and intimacy with God.
Jesus didn’t just save me from something—He saved me for something.
This Easter, I stood not just as a believer in the resurrection, but as someone whose life has been resurrected.
My gratitude and love for our Lord and Savior are immeasurable. There are no words that fully capture what I now carry in my heart.
I’m at peace and have never been so grateful, mentally healthy, stable, or whole. I’m hopeful, faithful, and expectant for God’s best.
Seeking… Where Do I Go From Here?
I know my calling and purpose. I’ve obeyed God in doing the work He’s given me—I’ve established The World of Personal Storytelling School and Community, written a book, and am continuing to work for First Time Storytelling and here on Brave Action Ministry, sharing my stories and testimonies and being back on social media.
I’m no longer obsessed with success, outcomes, and results, but still want them. I know the way is to delight myself in the Lord, and He will give me the desires of my heart (Psalm 37:4). I’ve experienced receiving God’s desires for me, and I know the entrepreneurial, marketplace, and ministry paths are right for me.
The Cost of Going Without God
I’m very familiar with the entrepreneurial roller coaster. I’ve lived it. I’ve built from ambition, chased goals fueled by pressure, and measured success by hustle. That’s the way of the world: keep grinding, keep striving, keep pushing until something gives—usually your peace, your relationships, or your health.
I made decisions based on fear, scarcity, and self-reliance. Even when I was getting results, I wasn’t getting rest. My joy was fleeting. My mind was always racing. My spirit was unsettled.
I was not alone.
According to a 2024 survey of entrepreneurs by FounderReports.com:
- 87.7% experience at least one mental health issue
- 50.2% report struggling with anxiety
- 45.8% report high stress levels
- 34.4% experience burnout
- 26.9% report poor work-life balance
- 26.9% feel lonely or isolated
These numbers aren’t just statistics—they’re symptoms. They reveal what happens when we build without God, when we try to lead without listening, when we grind without grace, and when we chase what we think we want instead of receiving what God has already prepared.
And it’s not just the world that’s living this way—many believers are caught in the same cycle. We say we trust God, but still act like it’s all on us. We pray, but then we move in our own strength. That used to be me.
But I’ve learned my lesson. I’ve been refined. I’ve surrendered. And I’m not going back.
Today, I refuse to fall into the traps of self-made ambition and worldly validation. I refuse to move unless God says move. I’m no longer trying to prove anything—I’m walking in purpose, guided by peace.
There’s always more I could do in the natural—but if it’s not aligned with God’s timing and instruction, it’s futile. I’ve matured past trying to stay busy just to feel better in my flesh. That old habit of doing something just to feel like I’m doing something—I’ve outgrown it.
It’s clearly written in Psalm 127:1–2:
“Unless the LORD builds the house, its builders labor in vain. Unless the LORD watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain. In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat—for He grants sleep to those He loves.”
This season calls for stillness, not striving. It requires a different kind of strength—the strength to trust. It’s not about doing nothing—it’s about refusing to do the wrong something.
I don’t just want movement—I want alignment. I don’t just want to build—I want to co-labor with God. That’s the only kind of work I’m willing to do now, but it’s also my first time being at this point of wisdom and understanding. I’ve never walked with God at this level of surrender, clarity, and trust before. And because this is new ground, I’m not pretending to know what to do next.
Instead of rushing ahead, I’m seeking His Word—because I need to better understand what to expect and how to proceed. I don’t want to assume. I don’t want to rely on what worked in the last season. I want to know what He’s saying now.
That’s why I’m paying close attention to how God speaks and leads in Scripture—because His patterns haven’t changed. He’s a God of specifics. He gives direction to those who listen.
Seeking to Hear at a New Level
This moment reminds me of Elisha. During the drought, God told him to go to the brook of Cherith, where ravens fed him morning and evening (1 Kings 17:2–6). When the brook dried up, God told him to go to Zarephath, where a widow would provide for him (1 Kings 17:7–9).
God’s instructions were specific. They weren’t vague. And they came step by step.
This is how He operates—Noah was given exact measurements for the ark, Moses was told exactly what to say and do, and Paul was repeatedly redirected by the Holy Spirit. Each step required obedience. None of them moved without hearing first.
What It Takes to Hear
Hearing from God isn’t a mystery—it’s a result of posture, practice, and pursuit. The Bible lays out several clear conditions for hearing God’s voice:
1. A Heart Positioned to Listen
“Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening.” —1 Samuel 3:10
Samuel’s response shows the posture we need—readiness and reverence. Hearing starts with a humble heart that expects God to speak.
2. A Life Yielded in Obedience
“If you love Me, keep My commandments.” —John 14:15
“To the one who has, more will be given.” —Matthew 13:12
God is more likely to speak again when we’ve obeyed what He’s already said. Delayed obedience or selective obedience can dull our spiritual ears.
3. Faith that He Will Speak
“But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.” —Hebrews 11:6
Faith is foundational. If we’re doubting He speaks—or doubting that we can hear—we’re blocking what He wants to reveal.
4. Time in the Word
“Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.” —Psalm 119:105
God often speaks through His written Word before He speaks anything else. If we’re not in the Word, we’re likely to miss His voice.
5. Stillness and Silence
“Be still, and know that I am God.” —Psalm 46:10
Noise—externally and internally—can drown out the whisper. He speaks in a still, small voice (1 Kings 19:12). We need to make space to hear it.
6. Seeking with Persistence
“Call to Me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.” —Jeremiah 33:3
God invites us to call, seek, knock, and wait. Hearing is often the result of sustained seeking, not drive-by prayers.
What To Do While Waiting
Waiting isn’t passive. It’s active trust. It’s faith in motion—just without the striving. While I’m here in Massachusetts, that means being fully present and available to my family. It means showing up for them with love, patience, and intentionality—not because it’s the end of my journey, but because it’s part of it.
Waiting also means continuing the work God has already given me to do. I’m still stewarding the World of Personal Storytelling School and Community, writing, refining, and sharing my testimony through Brave Action Ministry, and staying faithful in building First Time Storytelling. Just because I haven’t seen the full manifestation of the next season doesn’t mean I stop sowing in this one.
And I’m not doing it alone.
God has blessed me with a strong network of prayer warriors—faithful, powerful intercessors who continue to lift me up. Their prayers carry me. Their encouragement strengthens me. Their agreement in faith reminds me I’m not isolated; I’m surrounded.
Still, I’ve written this post as much for myself as for you. Even with that support, I’m in uncharted territory. I don’t have another entrepreneur in my life right now who’s walked this path—this level of surrender, clarity, and trust—and can disciple me through it. But that’s okay. I get to cling even more tightly to the Word, to prayer, and to the Holy Spirit as my guide. And we live in an incredible time in history where many teachings and sermons are available.
So for now, I wait, I listen, I obey—and I write. As I continue to learn, grow, and receive answers, I’ll keep sharing what God reveals. This is only the beginning of what He’s unfolding.
I run with perseverance the race marked out for me, fixing my eyes on Jesus.